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Saturday, April 30, 2005

North America's corporate double standards

CEO Conrad Black
Crime(s) committed:
- "received over $7 million in unauthorized payments of company funds"
- "appropriated over $62 million"
- "paid [...] American columnist George Will $25,000 for a single day of consulting, after which Will wrote favourably about Black without disclosing the payment"
- "fraud"
- "stole $400 million"

Justice dealt out:
- "[resigned] as chief executive"
- "fired"

Randolph Guthrie III
Crime(s) committed:
- "[operated] a DVD online store [selling pirated movies]"

Justice dealt out:
- "sentenced to a jail term of two years and six months in China, a fine of 500,000 Chinese Renminibi (RNB) [roughly $76,000 CAD] and deportation from the country upon completion of his sentence."
- legal libel and slander by the MPAA

Hypothetical Random Person
Crime(s) committed:
- "shared a movie screener with friends"

Justice dealt out:
- "[made] a federal felon"
- "imprisoned for three years" as per the "Family Entertainment and Copyright Act"
- legal libel and slander by the MPAA

Random Person
Crime(s) committed:
- "[beat] up pregnant girlfriend"

Justice dealt out:
- "12 months in jail"



Friday, April 29, 2005

A rather wiki idea

What's a wiki? It's like Wikipedia, although I wouldn't consider Wikipedia a very good example of a wiki.

A wiki is basically a site that anyone can edit. Wikipedia is not a great example because it is practically mainstream and has connections to commercial companies. Wikis are typically associated with anarchist movements, because they are built collaboratively, and voluntary collaboration is a key concept in anarchism.

That said, I have plans to establish my own wiki. Not traditional wikis, to be sure, because I'm a little reluctant to go fully open-source here. However, it will likely be a heavily-protected wiki with only certain parts open to public editing; that is, the core of the wiki may have to stay locked under a small team of recognized editors.

I'm a little hesitant to use an existing copyleft licence for various reasons. I may have to discuss this with some other people, although no one has expressed real interest yet.



Thursday, April 28, 2005

Thoughts on Jade Empire and culture

I posted the following on Bioware's Jade Empire forums, regarding the game Jade Empire and the mild controversy it has caused. I thought this might be interesting also to readers here, if I really have any. Here's the post:

I'm going to try and figure out why this game causes offence to some people.

First of all, this game depicts a setting that is undeniably based on a western interpretation of China. I think that's the biggest issue here -- using a misinterpretation and creating fiction off it. The setting draws from sources that have been, in some ways, filtered through a western perspective.

Some examples might include the really weird names that have gone a bit over the top in the game. There are no truly Chinese counterparts for names such as "Sagacious Zu" or "Dawn Star" or "Wu the Lotus Blossom". If one tries to translate those names, they would either end up as much more succinct and casual names, thus losing their strange and exotic flavour in English -- or they might simply sound ridiculous.

For example, a logical word-for-word translation for "Two Rivers" in Chinese would look something like "two sets of river-(flowing)"; however, if it is treated as a place name, it would look much shorter, perhaps more like "Twin-Creek", with some literary, archaic, and subtle qualities that are often lost in translation. This loss is what people consider disrespect (if it's Chinese native speakers doing the translation, they can at least be forgiven for being bad at English).

As for the western interpretation, it is again readily demonstrated by the fact that those names are not translations of genuine Chinese names, but were most likely developed from stereotypes of sloppy translations to give a pseudo-Chinese feeling. This sort of westernized pseudo-Chineseness upsets many people.

Secondly, one of the bigger complaints Chinese people often have is how their languages are treated; this is closely tied to the first point. Despite the sheer number of speakers, Chinese languages and their basic ideas are not at all understood by most non-Chinese people. In-your-face translations such as "Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon" completely destroy the subtle undertone and brevity in the Classical Chinese phrase, and are justifiably viewed by many as outright disrespectful, especially if the translations come from western sources or are intended to attract a western market.

On the other hand, Jade Empire's treatment of the languages comes across as none too sensitive; the pronunciation of names is easily identifiable as the stereotypical Canadian/American's poor attempt at sounding genuine. For example, "Jian" is pronounced as "jee-onn", which is actually about as bad as "jye-ann" to a sensitive ear -- or perhaps even worse due to the voice actor's superfluous neutralization of the vowel sounds.

Mentioning Tho Fan is an irrelevant point. It is pretty obvious that the pronunciation of names in Jade Empire is not due to any artistic merit but most likely negligence or lack of time and resources. In any case, I don't remember hearing any Tho Fan speakers in game render those words exactly as the English-speaking voice actors say them anyway.

The overall point is, when an entity that is perceived to be foreign creates something that is based on a largely misinterpreted Chinese concept, it becomes quite intolerable and offensive to the more sensitive population.

Using the fact that Jade Empire is fiction does not at all counter the arguments, because all fiction is to some extent based on reality, and Jade Empire is most certainly no exception. Fiction writers understand that the use of source materials should be justified by a demonstration of adequate knowledge. Otherwise, artistic licence can just be a crutch to fall back on every time for not caring enough.



Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Plotless game

I wonder why game developers can't even make a good story appear at least decent in a video game. I mean, I'm sure even the worst films I've ever seen have more coherency. I had the impression that the video game industry needed more programmers and 3d artists. Well, apparently what they really need more than anything is decent writers and reputable voice acting standards.

Specifically, I'm referring to the Xbox game, Red Ninja: End of Honor [sic] this time, though my complaints really apply to a wide range of games, Japanese and otherwise. Well, it does have a plot, which was apparently written by a famous film director. That is what baffles me -- why would something written by any respectable writer have that sort of poor presentation?

Most video games have an unhealthy tendency to cater to the mindless gamer group and rush through plotlines as if there were none. In other cases, when ancient history of some country is involved, the voice acting in English is almost always bad and unconvincing. Why do they still do it?

I wonder why the developers decided to rip out the Japanese voice acting all together and put in low-quality English dubs that can barely be called mediocre. Simply listen to Takeda Katsuyori, and one might understand the issue better.

Listen to how they say "Lord Nobunaga Oda". They pronounce it like "Lawrd Noh!-boo!-nah!-gah!" just for starters. Why do they always invert the name order anyway? Personally, I dislike all instances of inverting East Asian names unless the person in question has a clearly Western name. Personal preference aside, it's also standard practice to put the family name first for historical figures before the Meiji restoration. Even brainless gamers that will be the main patrons of this game should not dictate the terms.

On the other hand, Shingen Takeda is pronounced like "Shinjin Tah!-kay!-duh!", which sounds really ugly and is a mispronunciation.

And I thought House of the Dead 3 was bad enough...



Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Trying too hard to fit in

Sometimes, I guess I simply try too hard to fit in.

It doesn't matter what I do; I just put out everything I can, drain myself, and leave without making the sort of impact I desire, feeling just a little more useless.

I don't know what else to say right now, so I'll leave it at that.



Monday, April 25, 2005

Parenting software... what?

Program Limits Kids' Video Gaming

It's a computer program that monitors video game use and, if the parents deem it so, blocks certain games from being run. The easiest way to think of it is a V-Chip for the PC. WallFly is designed to assist parents who want to monitor the software that is run on the home computer.
Hmm, what about... taking a closer look at what games folks are buying for their children?

Games are unbelievably expensive these days. Unless they're really rich and give out generous allowances, which I say is a bad parenting habit in itself, kids cannot afford games. They would have to starve, and save pretty diligently. Naturally, if they want the game that badly, they'd get past whatever filter is installed.

And if as a parent one can't even bother to notice that, well, who else is going to do the proper parenting then?

Plus, this program only monitors what is run on the computer. Meaning, it'll make parents sit back and relax whilst their children save for months to buy a game they cannot play and cannot return. In case parents don't know, the standard industry policy is that games which have been opened up cannot be returned at full price. Yes, it is very unfair and unscrupulous, but that's the unwritten unanimous decision by most large retailers and there's nothing to be done about it.

Sadly, this is yet another move from moralistic businesses trying to scam money out of irresponsible parents.

I have a suggestion for parents.

If you have a bright child who may potentially do things you don't want them to, sit back for a moment first and ask yourself why you don't want them to do whatever you don't want them to do and think how effectively the measures you take might stop them. If you don't think your kid is very smart, then check first -- you might be surprised.

You don't want them to play Grand Theft Auto: Vice City? Why is that? Do you find that game morally disgusting? What would be the result of your child playing that game? Would he or she turn into a violent killer and think gangs are cool? Is your child that kind of person? Are you instead being unnecessarily distrustful of your child's character?

Don't even think about getting this program, though. If you have that much free money to burn, take a break once in a while and talk to your children. If you think that's an embarrassing thing to do, do it now before it's too late. Don't give them the wrong signal; don't declare preemptive war on them.



We hate everything

I'm well aware that many people despise advertising. I should know. You can say I'm technically part a group of people that want nothing to do with commercialism or ads. There is just something wrong about granting corporations and companies advertising space on every medium there is.

The blogosphere has often been compared to mainstream journalism, and the fundamental difference between the two is that one is amateurish and the other is professional and commercial. TV and newspapers are probably the biggest haven for advertisements, in any case. So I suppose a significant number of people would object to bloggers falling for the same money-deal.

Actually, I already thought about that before I put up ads. There are people who feel so strongly about this issue that they either block all ads with third-party software by default or simply refuse to visit ad-ridden sites and/or blogs. It doesn't quite matter to these people where the ads are from or what format they are in. They hate ads.

Right now, though, I'm not in the mood to present a counter-argument, because their conclusion is inevitable and I already understood that's what I would get. Instead, I'm going to respond by saying two things I don't like on blogs. Really, when I start compiling people's dislikes, it's apparent that We Hate Everything.

1) I can't stand sidebars that go on and on forever and ever, for example with 5000 links and 30 feature boxes -- literally. That baffles new readers greatly. Those sidebars tend to have a lot of scripts too, making everything load slowly.

2) Blogs, or just general websites, that load music, movies, or massive Java applets upon arrival. It's a horrible waste of bandwidth and resources for both the viewers and the host. Plus, it makes browsers unstable and hiccup badly. On the other hand, I don't have certain software that is taken for granted by mainstream users (e.g. QuickTime), so it's one more pain when my browser keeps bugging me about getting new plugins that never install properly anyway.

Ads? What's the big deal compared to those two memory hogs? Yes, they're evil and all, but it's not like I'm ever going to get paid here.



Sunday, April 24, 2005

The Other Face of the Internet

Too often, Internet users grow fond of ridiculing supposedly unintelligent users amongst their own ranks. They make fun of people typing in "l337sp33k" and those who communicate like their brains aren't working very well. Eventually, stereotypes such as the 12-year-old AOL user emerge as memes that spread like wildfire on Internet forums.

Review a few examples here:

stereotypical 12-year-old AOL user: lololz u sux a/s/l??/
stereotypical script-kiddy: omfg ur liek teh sooo gay im gonna hax0r u lolololz!!1!!1
stereotypical GameFAQs user: i think your eggagerating and being enconciderit.

Of course, laughing at them once in a while is not that much of a deal; after all, having to decipher those messages truly is annoying. Still, I think we are placing too much emphasis on this whole intelligence-in-relation-to-typing-skills deal, because the truth is that there is something else we ought to consider before we turn ourselves into elitists, gloating in our own assumed superiority: something much more important than any pretense of intelligence.

I call it wisdom. Some people consider it a glorified name for common sense, but I use the proper name for it. Common sense is a set of knowledge we all define differently but usually take for granted, but wisdom is different; it has an elevated status and is in theory not as universal. It is possible for a person to know very little but have a greater sense of understanding. Of course, it is not unusual that many of the stereotypes on the Internet actually don't show much wisdom, because wisdom is often associated with high intelligence. But wisdom does not necessarily come with intelligence.

It is certainly convenient for us to look at the world simplistically. We can think, "These people can't type! They are slow, stupid, and immature. Those who can type perfectly, such as us, must be superior in every way."

But thinking like this does not solve the problem that a large number of intelligent people show very little wisdom whatsoever. In fact, many of them use their intelligence as a weapon to spread poorly-conceived ideas and concepts over the Internet. Many of them are perfectly capable of using logic and semantics, often improperly, to win arguments. Some of them are great trolls, spammers, or script-kiddies.

The Internet, and by extension the world, is sadly not made up of "smart people who type perfectly" and "stupid people who can't type". Please make an effort to stop that meme.



Saturday, April 23, 2005

Phunnies: Dangerous Hacker!

Dangerous Hacker!

And I thought I was thoroughly bad at computers...



Friday, April 22, 2005

A positive platitude that is wrong

It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.
Actually, it takes a second to have someone make an impression on you and five seconds to forget that they ever existed. This is a very sad, but true fact in life. It's a lot easier to forget people than we would imagine, because we simply don't remember people we forget.

Life is just like that in the urban and suburban world and on the Internet.



Thursday, April 21, 2005

Elitist rubbish

Elitist rubbish from a professor

This professor seems to embody everything I believe is wrong, so I shall criticize him.

He should not have treated someone like that. It drives people desperate, and the elitist, threatening tone neither helps rehabilitate the person nor repairs any damage already done. This is why justice has always been so warped, always emphasizing vengeance and retribution. The words coming from an elitist "intellectual", I feel even more strongly about his ignorance.

On the other hand, The point about Windows is utter rubbish. My version of Windows is also installed on several other computers. I didn't received any letters from Microsoft yet, nor did millions of Chinese, Scandinavian, and Indian users out there.

This point immediately exposes the professor as an elitist scumbag: it shows an utterly naive view on intellectual property ownership and total misunderstanding of how things work.

In theory, the professor is already stepping into a grey area by installing Windows on a second machine. He should've read the EULA (I'm assuming it's XP); it clearly states that one may only install one copy on one machine.

In addition, why the heck did he leave something that precious on a unencrypted laptop, running Windows and constantly connected to the Internet, sitting around in an exam week? Anyone could've hacked into his system and taken out that precious data, or just with a floppy disk. What a genius! I see that bearing the UC Berkeley PhD prestige really pays off in terms of common sense.

I think this fellow is in bigger trouble than the person who took the laptop. First of all, he has shown himself to be a pompous idiot, his threatening words now blogged widely on the Internet. Not very nice for a researcher and an educator! Secondly, whoever he's supposed to be working with is now aware that this pathetic excuse of a PhD puts precious data, unencrypted and unpassworded, on a vulnerable Windows system and on a laptop.

It's probably not wrong to assume that Dr. Rine's career as a consultant is about to come to an end too. Perhaps he is going out of town to meet with contractors all trying to cancel deals with him? Perhaps he is going to try to schmooze them?

Some firms might like his bluffing skills though. It's sad to think that people like him will always be rich.



Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Grumpy

When I say I'm neurotic and excessively sensitive, I mean exactly that.

Today, I saw a disparaging remark on my dog blog. I have deleted it with extreme prejudice as per the principle of the freedom of speech, but the feeling of inadequacy has come back to haunt me; I'm feeling very grumpy and upset because of that.

To those that would leave comments such as "Geez, this is a stupid blog" to something I spent no little amount of time on, I say "Go away. Get out of my blog. Close your browser and get off the Internet."

I may forgive fast, but I never forget trespasses against me. I remember every instance of me suffering from guilt trips that are triggered by some random person's thoughtless, inconsiderate words.



Advanced Global Personality Test

Snatched from Postcards From Metro Suburbia.

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||| 16%
Stability || 10%
Orderliness |||||||||||| 46%
Empathy |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Interdependence |||||||||||| 50%
Intellectual |||||||||||| 43%
Mystical |||||||||||||| 56%
Artistic |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Religious |||||| 30%
Hedonism |||| 16%
Materialism |||||||||||||||| 70%
Narcissism |||||| 30%
Adventurousness |||||| 30%
Work ethic |||||||||||| 50%
Self absorbed |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Conflict seeking |||||| 23%
Need to dominate |||||||||| 36%
Romantic |||||||||||||||| 63%
Avoidant |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Wealth |||||| 30%
Dependency |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Change averse |||||||||||||||| 70%
Cautiousness |||||||||||| 50%
Individuality |||||||||||||| 56%
Sexuality |||| 16%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Physical security |||||||||||||||| 70%
Food indulgent |||||||||| 36%
Histrionic |||||||||||||||| 63%
Paranoia |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Vanity |||||||||| 36%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Female cliche |||||||||| 36%
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Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Unproductive Capitalism

Adam Smith's capitalism came out of the Industrial Revolution. It is still practised and worshiped today in most countries. To the classical liberals, capitalism is synonymous to happiness for humankind. But I firmly disagree with that, and I have one argument that is not often brought up. So, instead of giving you radical concepts, I'll try to reason from a more moderate approach.

Capitalism is based on competition and ownership of properties. By extension, ownership of ideas and technologies is also a fundamental tenet under capitalism. Thus, we have patents, trade secrets, and intellectual property laws. However, to what extent should the ownership be protected? Most capitalists I know of support the patents and copyright; they effectively believe that ideas can be owned. But one result of ideas being personal property is that the concept stifles competition greatly.

Innovation drives society forward, and that momentum leads to the betterment of society. Capitalists allege that when people are rewarded for their contributions, they work harder, create more innovation, and are in turn rewarded for their ingenuity. But bear in mind that when Adam Smith and his peers came up with proto-capitalism, the society was actually pretty primitive compared to modern standards.

It was not known to the early capitalists that most resources are finite. It was not comprehensible to them that technologies would advance to the point that competition became an immensely wasteful manner of creating innovation. Ownership of ideas further increased the unnecessary waste of limited resources.

Let's just use the computer software industry as an example. The existence of countless companies and their own proprietary software has resulted in a chaotic situation in the computing world. File formats are not standardized, and corporate, proprietary formats that are thought to be de facto but are in fact not universally accepted abound; and when they are indeed standardized, commercial software often has its own additions that render the standards useful in name only. This happens to the chagrin of casual users.

One great example is the file extension, .doc, which is a proprietary format used by Microsoft Word and is thought by many to be a de facto standard. In fact, when I was still attending school, I often received .doc files from people who simply assumed I had Microsoft Word installed. Now, for other capitalists (and non-capitalists) to compete with Microsoft's monopoly, they must waste a significant amount of time to reverse-engineer the format and build software with compatibility with Microsoft Word in mind.

In technological fields, ownership of ideas and competition have also been demonstrated to be highly wasteful methods of creating innovation. Companies that have created highly useful technologies often refuse to release them into the public domain, forcing competitors to waste valuable time and finite resources trying simply to "reinvent the wheel". With today's technological progress, it has become incredibly expensive to do this sort of research, and most competitors simply move on to other fields, leaving the owners of the intellectual property in a virtual monopoly.

The waste of finite resources is also an increasingly alarming issue at hand. Many energy sources used by human beings have been discovered to be non-renewable, and are quickly becoming exhausted. Even assuming that environmental issues are simply "conspiracy theories" thrown up by "tree-hugging hippies", we can still accept that pollution is highly harmful to the human body and ecosystems which we rely on. On the other hand, companies hoarding trade secrets simply force competitors to waste extra resources trying to recreate concepts and models that have already been developed somewhere else.

We can look at the automobile industry to find examples. There are vehicles that use much less fuel, and the efficiency is due to either good design or better-built engines. However, as ideas are owned and not to be shared freely in capitalistic societies, energy is needlessly wasted as people purchase automobiles that use fuel far more inefficiently.

Rather than moving society forward for the good of humankind, capitalism is slowly devouring precious resources that we humans, with our limited lifespan, urgently require to transform society to a more efficient model. Capitalism is not doing enough of what it is supposed to do, which is to reward distinguished individuals so that they in turn contribute more to society. Instead, it is turning into corporatism, where businesses are rewarded the most for being stale and immoral, and individuals are exploited by wage labour in a corporate world that does not guarantee success.

Society has evolved to a state where capitalism is becoming highly counter-intuitive and unproductive. Monopolies, namely, are springing out of the concept of intellectual property, and in turn stifle competition, which is what capitalism is truly based on. Even worse is the waste that is produced by secretive competition, and this intolerable inefficiency has come back to haunt the planet now, in the form of severe pollution and nearly-exhausted energy sources. Capitalism may have worked, and maybe not, but what is for certain is that it is not a working system.



Sunday, April 17, 2005

Dae Jang Geum on Wikipedia

I've rewritten the Wikipedia article on Dae Jang Geum, which was highly inaccurate. Hopefully, the article will attract more mainstream interest and grow, and then I'll be able to take stuff from there.

On the other hand, I will update the Dae Jang Geum info page continually (it's on the right sidebar), so remember to check back often.



Meme: Forty-five questions

Snatched from Purging Poison.

Here they are:

1. Were you named after anyone?
No.

2. Do you wish on stars?
No. I don't get to see the sky too often.

3. When did you last cry?
Not too long ago.

4. Do you like your handwriting?
Not really.

5. What is your favorite lunch meat?
"Favourite" is not applicable here, though I suppose chicken would do.

6. What is your birth date?
In the last few months of a particular year in the mid-80's.

7. What is your most embarrassing CD?
That would be one I burnt: it has the Spider-man theme and a bunch of unrelated songs, as well as some English talk show mp3s or something. I'm not sure where they came from.

8. Do you have a journal?
Blog? Yes. Secret diary? Not really.

9. What do you like best about yourself?
Pass.

10. Would you bungee jump?
A resounding no.

11. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
No.

12. Do you think that you are strong?
Not at all.

13. What is your favorite ice cream flavor?
Chocolate vanilla and butterscotch. I guess. I don't get to eat that stuff too often.

14. Red or pink?
Pink. Red tends to strain my eyes.

15. What is your least favorite thing about yourself?
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16. Last person you ate with?
My sister.

17. What color pants and shoes are you wearing?
Right now, I'm wearing neither.

18. What are you listening to right now?
Computer buzzing, it's driving me crazy.

19. What was the last thing you ate?
Salt and pepper.

20. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
Black, I guess.

21. What is the weather like right now?
Dark, since it's 1AM. I'm inside my room, and the door and windows are closed. No idea what it's like outside.

22. Last person you talked to on the phone?
Telemarketer from a month ago who somehow managed to trick me into picking up the phone.

23. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
EEK! A human!

24. Favorite drink?
Waaater. Root beer if I can get it.

25. Favorite sport?
I'm not athletic, but high-school hockey is not bad. Dodge ball can be fun, too, if it's with tolerant and mature schoolmates.

26. Hair color?
Pass.

27. Eye color?
Pass.

28. Do you wear contacts?
No.

29. Favorite food?
"Favourite" is not applicable here. I have little passion for food.

30. Last new movie you watched?
I haven't been watching movies lately. The last one was probably The Texas Chainsaw Massacre, the original one.

31. Favorite day of the year?
Unsure.

32. Scary movies or happy endings?
Scary movies with happy endings! Or just happy endings.

33. Summer or winter?
Winter.

34. Hugs or kisses?
Next.

35. What is your favorite dessert?
A cup of water.

36. Last concert you saw?
Never been to one.

37. What book are you reading?
Toyotomi Hideyoshi by Yamaoka Soohachi.

38. What's on your mouse pad?
Nothing.

39. What did you watch last night on TV?
I don't watch TV.

40. Favorite smells?
Unsure. My nose doesn't work as well as it should.

41. Favorite sounds?
Music playing, people singing.

42. Rolling Stones or Beatles?
What? Who?

43. Furthest you’ve been from home?
Unsure.

44. Do you have a special talent?
Unsure.

45. What is your ringtone?
Off and on vibrate.



Saturday, April 16, 2005

Dog blog

I have a new dog blog now. It's just an experiment, since pet blogs seem rather popular these days. You can go to my profile and look at it, or click here to see my dog blog.

Personally, I don't think I can do that blog on a daily basis, but I'll see what I can do. Also, the pictures are all going to be at least a few months old, because we lost our precious digital camera to burglars. :(



Friday, April 15, 2005

Only in Neverwinter...

Neverwinter Nights is a game which I've been playing since June, 2002. Because it was released in 2002 and actually started development many years before that, the graphics are naturally quite weak and stale for 2005. Now I'm just eagerly waiting for Neverwinter Nights 2 and Dragon Age. These days, I only play singleplayer modules. I play even less now though, as I've consumed most top-rated modules on public sites like NWVault.

As I'm now almost done with consuming other people's works, the desire to write my own adventure pops up once in a while, although the technical parts of building a module have always turned me away. Since I'm something of a perfectionist, I like to tweak things and make them work the way I want them to. In NWN-terms, that translates to two things: I might need to compile my own hakpak, and I definitely would have to write the scripts myself.

I've tried enlisting people to do the scripts, but that didn't work, and probably wouldn't work unless I can find someone with unlimited time, expertise, and patience. As for doing it myself, let's just say even the documentation for NWN scripting completely baffles me. I'm not that good with math or logic, or the preciseness required in those sort of scripting languages. I tried writing a script for an encounter, and spent a full hour debugging it because I missed either a parenthesis here or a semi-colon there. Plus, it didn't really work ideally, and was prone to abuse and game b0rkage.

I'm just more suited to writing storylines rather than doing the technical parts. I guess it might be possible if there are people willing to do collaborated work.

Anyway, that's it for now. I need to have more sleep: better nightmares than depression.



What do I think about relationships -- thoughts and reflections

Like I've always been saying, I'm a social phobic. I dread and fear social interaction and thus by extension all people that may potentially interact with me in some way. But unlike most social phobics, who are able to lead sane lives inside their own small circles of friends and family, I'm a severe case that has never been able to have a normal life. "Friendship" is very much an alien concept to me. I never really learnt how to distinguish the difference between an acquaintance and a friend, or between a close friend and a casual friend.

Of course, there were people that I might rightly refer to as friends, but I don't understand the real connotation of that word. If I'm afraid of certain friends and actively avoid them, are they still friends? If I keep many personal secrets and interact with them as business partners would with each other, what kind of friendship is that? How does one define that word? If I only put up a false image of myself, thinking it might protect me from harm, am I a friend, and are they really friends? Similarly, what kind of friend only talks to me superficially about the weather, sports, or things I have no interest in?

I have no real experience with getting to know people or maintaining friendships. I don't know how to take initiative, and I also don't know how not to turn down people. For some reasons or others, I'm so completely shut off within barricades I've built for myself that there's no real way for me to open up myself again. When people expressed interest in me, I simply showed them either indifference and feigned enthusiasm. After a while, I'd start getting guilt trips and had to ultimately make myself disappear, somehow. I believe I've been fairly successful -- less so online, but definitely successful in the offline world.

People usually aren't very persistent about getting closer to me, either because my tendency to disappear is working well for them or because they have simply forgotten about me; I suspect it's always the latter. That's not what I want at all, because, trust me, loneliness is very painful, and most people probably have never experienced it fully. However, now, I'm completely housebound, even to some extent online as well, meaning I have no way out of this vicious cycle of loneliness and self-doubt, two sentiments that continue to fuel each other's growth. When online, I do use some instant messaging services, but I have severed contact with the rest of the Internet. Basically, I've barricaded myself in again, in a tiny place where I feel most comfortable though unfulfilled; I'm effectively housebound on the Internet.

To illustrate with an example, I'll say how many personal emails I received and posted in the last 30 days. Also, my online activity will be discussed.

How many emails have I received that have been written with words specifically for me by a human being in the last month? The answer is zero. How many emails have I sent to others, letters specifically with words written by myself for each of them? The answer is again zero. In fact, I have not sent an email containing words in so long I can't even remember when I last hit "compose" and actually wrote words longer than a fragmented sentence in the message box.

As for my online activity, I generally do not post on forums or leave comments on other blogs. Recently, I've been leaving comments a bit more as I want people to visit my page and leave reciprocal comments. But ultimately, I stop leaving comments or even visiting other blogs, mostly because I can't stand the vibrancy and interactivity that remind me of social settings. Some bloggers also openly discuss their social lives and sophisticated problems within their relationships, which I often can neither understand nor empathize with. I guess I'm a little hurt by other people's colourful emotions at times.

Now, everything up to now is simply a premise for what I want to talk about here, which is where I stand in regard to relationships: relationships that are closer and more intimate than casual friendships -- in other words, romantic involvements.

With what I've just explained above, I think it's perfectly logical for anyone to realize the next point, which is -- I've never had a relationship. Note that there is no adjective in front of the word, "relationship", which again I use here to refer to more intimate involvements. I didn't put "I've never had a meaningful relationship" or "I've never had a fulfilling relationship". It's simply "I've never had a relationship".

No, I've never actually "dated" or "gone out" with someone else. Not in elementary school, not in high school. I have no experience whatsoever, and whether it's the bitterness that has gotten to me or something else, I'm now just a prude, and a puritan. No, I didn't get the ideas straight out from a Christian sect. I just feel like this, and I guess the development of my twisted perspective is mostly due to excessive loneliness. I'm not just any prude; many prudes are fine with sexual relationships and only dislike graphical descriptions of and discussions about them. I act in accordance to what I think, and that is a reason why I find myself a hopeless case.

What do I feel about relationships in general, and what to me is a proper relationship? Indeed, I have highly fantasized ideas. To me, a proper love relationship should be purely platonic, that is, completely free from sexual involvement and perhaps even physical contact. Also, there must be only two parties, and there must be mutual fidelity. The relationship must be able to last forever and must override and overshadow all other friendships. Marriage would be unnecessary as far as the ceremony goes. Since there is no sexual stuff involved, there would be little controversy for any deviant match.

Why the aversion for sexual stuff (note how I avoid the s-word itself)? First of all, frankly, I think, and this is not meant to offend anyone, that the human body is pretty disgusting. I've always had strong phobias, which have pretty much given me an radically different obsession with cleanness and aversion to alien smells. My severe social anxiety and the time I spent being alone probably only exacerbated my feelings.

If I think a box of apples smell worse than a septic tank, and to some extent I do, then how am I supposed to view intimate physical contact between human beings, such as kissing? The thought of people actually doing that somewhat tends to creep me out. Hugging is fine to me, and that is where I draw the line. Anything more than that seems perverted and nightmarish, even though I wouldn't normally use these words.

Would I prefer a far more puranitical society, where people can't simply publicize their sexual adventures everywhere, and where sexual expressions are taboo? Eh, well, no, but still.



Thursday, April 14, 2005

Annoying music

I'm not sure if everyone has the same problem, but this is an annoyance for my self. At times, I find myself having to listen to extremely annoying music, either because the parent has bad taste in music and decides to set the volume so loud the entire house can hear it, or just plain bad music I'm stuck with, for example when it's the theme song of a movie I'm watching.

What's worse than annoying music, though, is when I find the music so annoying that I look forward to hearing it again. I don't watch TV myself, but others do, and I hear a variety of songs playing everyday. Every time when annoying music starts in the background, I start listening intently to it with masochistic pleasure. I don't tell anyone about this, but just keep my ears open.

Of course, I don't deliberately look for mp3s of annoying music just to torture myself. It's just that I feel an urge to listen to the worst part in an annoying song, mentally reproducing it every time and even humming it.

Just for example, there was a worship song playing out there. Normally, Christian hymns sound good, if a bit too slow. This one, however, is a new hymn, and seems to be a live performance of some sort. The song is basically just a bunch of people shouting one after another and repeating the same words over and over again.

However, since they're half-shouting and half-singing without accompaniment, I can't make out a single word they're trying to say. I have some hearing-comprehension problems, true, but I can tell the difference between intelligible speech and nonsense. So, the song sounds like a load of people talking gibberish, and their vain attempt to make it sound musical ends up totally off-key. As for the voice, well, some of them sound like thirteen-year-olds. I'm not saying thirteen-year-olds are bad or anything, but in this context, it makes the music very annoying.

So as you can see, while the example song is indeed annoying and not just too artistically refined for me, I still find myself humming the lines occasionally. At least, I occasionally reproduce the song in my mind and put it on loop. Annoying music like that song often becomes like earworms, and that's pretty annoying. I mean, I'm fine humming Banana Phone because it's a fun song and it's by an artist I like, but annoying music is just, like it says, annoying.



Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Dae Jang Geum -- background information

Dae Jang Geum is set in the late 1400's and early 1500's. It takes place in Korea during the Joseon (Chosun) Dynasty. The story takes place around the capital city of Hanyang (Seoul) and also for some time the Cheju Island. I'll try to gather some historical information alluded to in the drama, although I don't claim this is accurate information, and instead of dismissing this page outright for its errors, try to leave constructive feedback instead. Translations are approximate and may not conform to any standards.

This post is only occasionally updated, but check back if you want. Last update at 10PM PST on August 25, 2005. There are spoilers in this post.

Hanseong/Hanyang:
Hanyang was the name for modern-day Seoul. It was also called Hanseong after the Joseon Dynasty took over. The name Seoul was a much older historical name for the city, and was reinstated after the end of the Japanese colonial period. The drama sometimes speaks of tigers, a reference to Siberian tigers that have long since disappeared from Korea but still lingered in tales. The Han River runs through Seoul, and that's where the historical names came from.

The name of Seoul remains in dispute even today. Whilst Seoul has been called exactly that for a century already, the Chinese continued to refer to it as "Hancheng" (Hanseong), which was a name with Chinese connotations. In addition, Hanseong literally means Han City, and may be interpreted wrongly by nationalists; Han being synonymous with China, Han City can be wrongly interpreted as "Chinese city" or "city that was once Chinese territory" or "city of a people that were once Chinese subjects" (c.f. the English word "niggardly").

The controversy escalated as the mayor of Seoul changed the official Chinese name of Seoul to "Shou'er". However, many Chinese continue to say "Hancheng" for various reasons (c.f. St Petersburg and Leningrad). One reason is that "Shou'er" sounds ugly and un-Chinese to some people, and other reasons revolve around tradition, habit, clarity, politics, nationalism, and so on.

Monarchs and Politics:
Two monarchs that reigned during this period were Yeonsang-gun (1476-1494, reign 1494-1506) and later King Jungjong (1488-1544, reign 1506-1544), who was Yeonsang-gun's half-brother.

Yeonsang-gun was overthrown in 1506 and replaced by King Jungjong. He was exiled and died a deposed king. Yeonsang-gun's rule was noted for its suppression of the Confucian intellectuals. He challenged the system and persecuted Confucians, but failed and was succeeded by King Jungjong who was put in place by Confucian supporters. Yeonsang-gun was thus seen by many as a tyrant, perhaps the worst tyrant ever in Korean history; Yeonsang-gun died on Ganghwa Island, to which he was exiled, a few months later. As you will see in the series, the yangban Confucians held considerable influence during Jungjong's reign; this was a backlash that rendered the king powerless.

King Jungjong in history was a benevolent king. However, he was too mild-tempered and weak for his position, and was thus easily manipulated by scheming officials. As he was more inclined to be a merciful king, he could not bring about stability in the country. However, the people loved him and his policies. In Dae Jang Geum, these facts about him are apparent and are echoed throughout the series. During this period, Korea was also harrassed on two sides by the Japanese and the Jurchens, and Jungjong's weak reign was therefore marked by its instability.

During Jungjong's reign, the Confucian yangban controlled the imperial bureaucracy and manipulated politics. King Jungjong, as mentioned above, was for the most part helpless about the court intrigue, because he wouldn't have become king in the first place without their support. On the other hand, Jungjong was forced to kill his own queen by these powerful officials, and even his queen and many of his concubines were actually their political puppets. This is an important aspect in Dae Jang Geum, because if the concubines and queen happen to give birth to a child, particularly if it's a male prince, it could influence the politics greatly for all players.

Another group of Confucians, known as the Shilin faction to which Jo Gwangjo belonged, tried to get King Jungjong to deal with these yangban, but the plan was foiled and many of them were either exiled or killed. This is an important background event in the series, and is a key point behind the hot spring incident in Dae Jang Geum.

The conflict between the two parties of Confucians is very significant in Korean history, so I will explain it a bit. One party is the group that was historically responsible for King Sejong the Great's ascension to the throne, and the descendants had thus been given tremendous power based on their meritorious services to the throne; I'll call them the Meritocrats. Many of them were yangban and landlords. The Shilin faction, on the other hand, were opposed to this group. During Jungjong's reign, Jo Gwangjo dominated the Shilin faction and tried to start radical reform. He failed, resulting in the 1519 Incident, where the Shilin faction suffered a tremendous setback. Many were killed, imprisoned, or exiled, including Jo himself. In 1521, an aftershock occured again, and even more Shilin scholars were purged.

King Sejong:
There are constant references in the drama to a King Sejong (Sejong Daewang) in the past. Sejong the Great was the fourth ruler of the Joseon Dynasty, and invented the Korean alphabet (Hangul). Prior to that, people used to write completely using Chinese characters (Hanja), and that is not really intuitive as Korean as a language is grammatically different from Chinese. Sejong's invention led to a definite increase in literacy, but the conservative Confucian intellectuals objected to this new script. Thus, in Dae Jang Geum, you will see that official documents are still written in Chinese, whilst personal letters are composed in Hangul, mostly by females.

Hangul and Hanja:
Hangul is the native Korean alphabet, whilst the Hanja are the equivalent of the Japanese Kanji and the Chinese Hanzi. They are Chinese characters, and during those days Hanja were written in Classical Chinese, which was the literary written language of China. Note that Classical Chinese was purely a written language, and was thus quite archaic. When it was read out loud, it was done in local dialects. Its status is much like Ecclesiastical Latin, which was a language artificially "frozen in time" by the Catholic church, and read out loud with local pronunciations and accents.

In Dae Jang Geum, as in history, most documents are still written in Hanja. The three characters given to Suh by the monk in episode one were Chinese characters. The imperial decrees are written in Hanja. The words the palace girls are studying are Chinese characters. Public bulletins are written in Hanja, for example the wanted posters early on in the series. Hangul was not a prestigious form of writing. Only in the 20th century did Hangul replace Hanja.

Reader crzwdjk said,

Random other facts about the Hangul script: the legend goes that the whole thing came to King Sejong in a dream, but probably he was just a very clever guy, and he managed to make a very clever script. It really is one of the easiest alphabets to learn. It was introduced, and then the aformentioned confucian intellectuals got a bit afraid of what would happen if people became literate, so it was discouraged if not banned. Besides, it was too easy to use, it was writing for women and children and stupid people. Real Men used characters, the more complex the better. This persisted until the early 1900's when Japan won Korea in the Ruso-Japanese war, and occupied it. It was certainly not a happy time for Korea, and is a source of lingering resentment against the Japanese, but they did re-introduce the use of Hangul. Their version was similar to the way Japanese is written, and had the main nouns and verbs and such as characters, and the grammar-syllables like suffixes and particles in Hangul. After the Japanese left, they switched to using Hangul almost exclusively, so characters are now rarely seen, and are more of a historical thing.

The random side-note to this random side-note is that if the Russians hadn't been incompetent and lost the Ruso-Japanese war, then Korea might well have been a Russian territory instead of a Japanese on, and instead of Hangul, korean would be written in cyrillic, which is a pretty weird concept.
Note that historians tend to agree that King Sejong probably did not invent the script all by himself, but most likely with a committee.

Japan:
Japan was in the middle of the Sengoku Period, but warlords and Japanese pirates (wakō) could still threaten the coastal areas and the islands under Korean control. They were a large threat, but not as significant as they would later become. In the late 1500's, Toyotomi Hideyoshi unified Japan and invaded Korea, and that was when Japan became a major threat. This goes beyond the scope of the story, so is not of much importance here.

However, the Three-Ports Incident (translation not verified) is a notable historical event. To deal with the wakō, the Joseon Dynasty tried to impose stricter trading laws on the Japanese residents from Tsushima and Iki-jima in three southern Korean ports: Pusan, Jinhae, and Ulsan. This caused wide dissent amongst the Japanese as trading was their livelihood. An uprising started in 1510, aided by the Soo clan from Tsushima, but was crushed by Korean forces. The Japanese residents in Korea were banished, and Japan and Korea remained hostile to each other until the year 1512, when trade officially resumed with Tsushima.

Some of the Japanese invaders in this drama are said to be from the island of Tsushima. Their leader would be the warlord, Soo Haruyasu (1475-1563), who unified the 38 Soo fiefs on Tsushima as a sengoku daimyō.

China:
The Ming Dynasty ruled China around that period. It seems that Korea was regarded as a protectorate at that time in both countries. A few clues in the drama demonstrate this attitude: 1) the Ming representatives often have outrageous behaviours in Dae Jang Geum; 2) the king's selected heir needs the Ming Dynasty's approval; 3) serving the Ming representatives is a task no one apparently wants to take.

The Yellow Turban Rebellion (also called Yellow Scarves Rebellion), called The War of Hwanggeonjeok in the series:
This is a historical reference from the words on the wine bottles delivered to Prince Jinsung who is to become King Jungjong in Dae Jang Geum. This rebellion took place in China, near the end of the Han Dynasty in the late 2nd century, and was started by peasants who wore yellow scarves around their heads. One slogan used by the rebels was "Cangtian yisi, Huangtian dangli; sui zai jiazi, tianxia daji". It's roughly something like "The heavens (i.e. Han) are already dead, so the Yellow Heaven (reference to the yellow scarves) to come ought to be enthroned; the time is the year of Jiazi (184 A.D.), and all under heaven shall be/is auspicious". The message was written by Zhang Jiao (Korean: Jang Gak), the mastermind behind the rebels.

The secret code presented to Jungjong says, "Keum chun gi sa, hyun chun dang wi" in Korean, which is based on the first two Chinese sentences from the rebels' slogan but with the initial character of each sentence changed to mean "Today (reference to Yeonsang-gun) is dead, and Hyun (Jungjong) shall be king."

The rebellion was ultimately crushed, but it shook the foundation of the frail Han Dynasty and eventually led to the Three Kingdoms period. Click here to see the extent of the rebellion (look at the area marked in yellow).

Zhuge Liang, Cao Cao, and Liu Bei:
These three Chinese historical figures from the Three Kingdoms period (in the 3rd century) are referred to occasionally in Dae Jang Geum. In episode four, for example, there is a question regarding Cao Cao's campaign in Hanzhong (a place in central China, in modern-day southwest Shaanxi).

During the Three Kingdoms period, China was divided into three kingdoms: the kingdom of Wei, in northern China under Cao Cao; the kingdom of Shu, in central and southwestern China under Liu Bei; and the kingdom of Wu, in southeastern China under Sun Quan. The three kingdoms fought against one another, for the most part Shu and Wu united against Wei. It is one of the most well-known periods of Chinese history, and is a source of inspiration for many (c.f. the Classical Chinese novel, Romance of the Three Kingdoms).

Zhuge Liang is still regarded today as the wisest military commander, diplomat, and domestic minister in Chinese history. He is traditionally a symbol of wisdom and ingenuity in East Asia, and served faithfully as Liu Bei's chief advisor and, after Liu's death, the kingdom's prime minister.

It is said that Zhuge, when leading a campaign against the southern barbarians, was trying to cross a river, but the weather was too severe. The local traditions in that region demanded that forty-nine sacrifices be beheaded and their heads be offered to appease the spirits of the dead and stop the storm. According to legend, Zhuge invented the mantou (steamed bun) to replace the sacrificial ritual and to fool the spirits. Eventually, mantou became the staple food of northern China and spread all over the world.

The Xia Dynasty and King Jie:
In episode five, Gang Duk-Gu makes a reference to a King Gul (King Jie in Chinese) from China.

King Jie is generally considered a great tyrant. He was the last king of the legendary Xia Dynasty, and was overthrown by Tang, who founded the Shang Dynasty (1600 BC).

The idea that he only ate the right front paws of bears is probably to show his extravagance.

Government and administration:
Translations here may vary significantly from scholarly sources, but this section should explain the basic idea.

A centralized government system based on the Chinese jiupin zhongzheng (nine-rank system) is in use in Dae Jang Geum and during the Joseon Dynasty. Basically, government offices are divided into nine grades, and this simple chart would help explain it: 1a, 1b, 2a, 2b, 3a, 3b, 4a, 4b, 5a, 5b, 6a, 6b, 7a, 7b, 8a, 8b, 9a, 9b (A and B being Jung and Jong in Korean). Grade 1a is the highest, and grade 9b the lowest. In particular, 3a is also divided into upper-court 3a and lower-court 3a. Officials from 1a to upper-court-3a are called Upper Court Officials, Officials from lower-court 3b to 7a are called Lower Court Officials or Upper Staff Officials. The others are Lower Staff Officials. According to Dae Jang Geum, high palace ladies (sanggung) are at 5a. It was not possible for women to get past that, except for the royalty or consorts of the king.

The system was established in 1469 in the Joseon Dynasty. Whilst the names of various offices might change as time went on, the system as a whole did not deviate too much from its original form throughout the Joseon Dynasty.

Under the king, there was an advising body -- a senate of sorts. The head of the senate would be a figure similar to the Prime Minister. Below him, there were the right and left ministers; all three of them would be at 1a, which was the highest status officials could attain. Further below them were left and right advisors and consultants, each pair at 1b and 2a.

Under the senate, there were six ministries: the census ministry, which conducted censuses and collected taxes; the investiture ministry, which formally conferred titles and decided on the designation of offices; the ceremony ministry, which was in charge of official ceremonies and diplomatic negotiations; the military ministry, which was in charge of defence, appointment of military posts, and allocation of military forces; the manufacturing ministry, which was in charge of government construction; and the judicial ministry, which was responsible for law enforcement, criminal investigations, judicial rulings, as well as jails and work camps. The two ministers overseeing these ministries as a whole were at 2a and 2b.

As for the country, it was historically divided into eight provinces (do). The list goes as follows: Chungchong, Gangwon, Gyeonggi (where Hanseong was located), Gyeongsang, Hamgyong, Hwanghae, Jeolla, and Pyong'an (Pyongyang).

Court Ladies:
This diagram from episode 4 in Dae Jang Geum should explain a lot. This is the plain version:



This one should explain everything:



Every position from 1a to 4b on this chart is one of the king's consorts. The sanggung (the ones wearing the wigs, addressed as "madams") are at 5a.

Dae Jang Geum's Royal Kitchen:
This is a bit hard to explain, so I'll just use pictures from the drama instead.

It might be a bit confusing that there's a "Highest Kitchen Lady" who is actually below the "Head Lady" in status.

Highest Kitchen Lady:


Head Lady:


As far as my understanding goes, the Head Lady is in charge of administrative duties in various residences in the palace, whilst the Highest Kitchen Lady is only in charge of the royal palace. At various points in the drama, it is hinted that the Head Lady actually meddles in affairs she is not supposed to involve herself with.

Important/Memorable Quotations (Major spoilers):

Translations based on the DVD and localized versions, paraphrased where possible to reduce the Engrish.

"I believe that food shouldn't be used as a means for something else whatsoever ... I want to set that straight as I leave the palace. That is my only wish before I die." --Lady Jung to Lady Han

"Become the Highest Kitchen Lady of the Royal Palace, Jang-geum, and write down my grievances in the secret document that's passed down ... But it is your choice to make. If you don't want to be a court lady, or you don't become the Highest Kitchen Lady, you must not read [my letter], or show or tell others about it." -- Jang-geum's mother to Jang-geum

"He's not a baekjeong [butcher or slave, lowest social class in Joseon Korea]! My father's not a lowly baekjeong! He's a military officer who protects the King! My father is not a baekjeong... He's an officer of the Royal Militia." --Jang-geum to crowd

"No, I can't leave my friend out here." --Keum-young to Lady Choi

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