Why is it that some people just have to be so repulsive?

Normally, I like to preach tolerance and thoughtfulness, but there are times when it just doesn't work with me. There are some people that seem so repellent, so disgusting, so unimaginably vile, that I can't even rationally stop myself and wonder why I feel like this. And I'm not talking about nearly-mythicized celebrities like Hitler or Martha Stewart or Britney Spears, that are often despised because it's trendy to despise them. I'm talking about ordinary people, the sort of people that you see in class, at work, in the store, on the street, or wherever. The sort of people that you might come into contact with regularly or once in a while, whom you may not know really well or even at all.

I don't understand myself. Am I just a stupid person that's misguided about awareness and intelligence?

Why do I have so much rage that even I know is misguided but can't really explain why? I know I am extremely reluctant about venting, and all the frustration and negativity inevitably build up, but I don't understand why the anger and hatred rush out all at once when I think of certain people, people that I cannot stand. Now, there are a lot of people that I can't stand, for example those who are insensitive, sanctimonious, overly sociable, cynical, sneering, or just plain negative. I don't like to associate with people that are any of the above, but I don't get angry at them, and I certainly don't hate them. Sure, I may get frustrated often at them, and maybe jealous, but I don't find every part of their persons or their every move disgusting.

The kind of negative emotion that runs through me even extends to their friends, acquaintances, or associates. A stream of blood would rush to my head, and I would direct a lot of the negativity at anyone that is associated with these, let's just say, enemies of mine, even though most of the time they have no idea I exist. Sometimes, I get extremely frustrated at mutual acquaintances or friends (do I even have any?) that continue to associate with these enemies of mine. Worse, I get angry at myself in the end.

So what do these 'enemies of mine' have in common? They actually do tend to share a lot of characteristics. For one, these people are always very confident, maybe a little arrogant and self-centred, and also to some extent competent at what they do. They are the leader types, and somewhat outgoing and fairly sociable. They don't know what the word tact means, and they think cynicism is the virtue of dissing anyone that thinks differently than themselves. They are very popular and well-adjusted wherever they happen to be in life.

Now wait a second; isn't this the list I wrote a few paragraphs back? Yes, but these qualities don't necessarily make people 'enemies of mine'. It's just that these 'enemies' happen to have all or most of these qualities. Oh, and one thing I almost forgot to mention: these are all young, non-celebrity men that are nearly androgynous in some respects but distinctively male in others.

I don't want to think about biology or genetics. I'd rather ponder the psychological reasons behind this intense dislike. It could be just plain jealousy at work here; it could be some sort of psychoanalytical complex, if Freud is even remotely right. It could be chemical imbalances -- the possibilities are endless. The only thing I know is that I get put down by myself and others for thinking the way I think.

Stop it, if this is what you do, and show me some sympathy, for decency if nothing else.